The good and the bad.

Yesterday marked four months since Tyler's death. I am worried that this month will be particularly difficult for myself as well as all of Tyler's loved ones, because this is also the month of his birth. Yesterday was a really horrible day. These four months have seemed to fly by and drag on all at once. I feel like my head and my heart are filled beyond capacity. There's just so much I want to talk to him about. There are stories I want to tell, music to share, and emotions to be discussed. All the while I feel like I've been lost for four months, like I've been wandering aimlessly in a cold, dark plain with no path or signs to follow. And I find that I keep looking for him. I guess my heart still does not want to believe that he is gone and misleads me to think that he is just going to reappear and make everything okay again.

But in the midst of all of this, there are some really good things that I should let you know about. First, we have two new runners on Team Tyler: Lane from Springdale Chick-fil-A, and Brandon from Cincinnati Christian University. I am so excited to raise suicide prevention / love awareness with them! Thank you, Lane and Branden! :) Also, we will be having a spirit night at Western Hills Chick-fil-A to raise funds for marathon registration and shirts. A spirit night is where customers can turn in a little flyer to the cashier, and then 10% of their purchase goes to the cause. On top of that, Urban Active in Western Hills is going to donate six or seven free one-month memberships that will be auctioned, and all of the proceeds will go to Team Tyler. I am so grateful and overwhelmed by the generosity and kindness of both businesses! It is wonderful to see good in people during such dark times. And lastly, the marathon training is going well. I'm back to a healthy weight, and now I can actually enjoy running....... sometimes. ;)

There is good and there is bad, but we all have to keep on keeping on somehow. Find hope in something, love others unconditionally, and remember that the heart of life is good. That's all I have to say for now.